The revisions on the new book have been taking it out of me. Even though my editor and I agree that this is necessary and I’m pretty sure I’m headed in the right direction, this book really is in many way terra incognita for me. I keep telling myself that my current level of discomfort is a good thing, that I wrote this book because I thought I was getting too comfortable with certain characters, tropes, and point of view choices. Still, it all feels like an enormous gamble, with a high fucked-it-up-royal probability.
Also, it may be getting to me that I have to read state execution protocols for research. Try reading it without feeling creeped out.
Don’t worry. I’ll be fine. It’ll get done, and it’ll be fabulous. Unless it isn’t.